A vanilla friend of mine says that all relationships go through "eb and flow". Good days and bad days. Doesn't matter what kind of relationship, they all have them. i think perhaps i could agree to that.
Not that Master and i have an issue with each other, ever (at least in the past 11 months), but we do have good days and bad days. This weekend was bad. We didn't have a good connection when we left each other over the weekend and that made my connection to Him and His connection to me not as good as it usually is. i felt lost. i told Him so, and it was such a relief to get it off my chest right away instead of holding on to it for days before i discussed it with Him. A big weight was lifted after i told Him how i felt.
To get the connection back, most of the time i just need to see Him. He laughs when i say He fills that hole that is empty - HA. Sometimes i think a punishment would be great. Make that connection to Him better. Remind me that i am owned. Bring me back into a submissive reality so to speak.
And sometimes, whether we have a bad day, or weekend, i still like to be reminded that i am owned.
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