So i feel like a GIANT ass. All of this typing i do about talking to Master and telling Him everything and i don't tell Him something i should have.
A friend of mine invited me to go to a munch with him and i decided not to mention it to Master because i don't want to go. i was afraid He would tell me to go.
So because i can't, or will i ever lie to Master, when He asked me about said friend i had to discuss with Him what was talked about. i told Master the truth that i didn't want to talk to Him about it because i didn't want to go.
Masters answer to my thinking......its not for me to decide. If He wants me to go somewhere or do something He will have me go or do what He wants. He knows what is best for me always and what i want doesn't really matter.
i was punished. Understandably so.
The worst was the look on His face when i told Him. It cut right through me.
i'll never do it again. Ever.
i'm also leaving for a trip for the rest of the week. Although i will still talk to Master everyday it still won't be the same and i will miss that. i need Him, want Him, live for Him. Only Him.
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