The day finally came, i am officially divorced.
How does it make me feel and what does that mean for my future?
Well, the tears are here for one. i guess just because its an end of some pain and sadness that yet something else i had i fucked up and lost and its over. i am officially "free". It's not "him" that i am upset about loosing. Its just the thought of, if that makes sense. Maybe it's the sense of loneliness that is making me feel this way. Being "officially and physically" alone. i have never been physically alone before, as in not somehow or someway attached to. It's getting hard to explain. i AM attached to Master, but in a different way. He owns me and He is always with me. So in that aspect i am not alone and i know that. Maybe its that its the release of finally not being attached to that anymore? All of the stress and dread are finally gone. i don't know. i don't think i am making any sense.
What does it mean for my future? Master will decide that.
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